Dread....

I feel like I am not the best mom. I hear all the other moms saying how much they love summer. They want to have longer summers and they do so many fun things with their kids during the summer. I on the other hand dread it. I don't like very many things about it. I feel like I am always on my kids about cleaning (what kid wants to clean every day during summer?) but my house is always a wreck because they are in and out in and out all day long changing clothes, fighting, arguing, spilling, etc. My nerves are shot! Shot I tell you.

I try to do fun things with them. We go swimming, we go to the library, we play. But I think the stress of no schedule constant laundry, dishes, mediating, etc. runs its toll on me. Maybe I wouldn't mind it so much if my kids listened to what I asked the FIRST time I asked it.

I am ready for school to start. I am ready for schedules to be back in play. But I dread it at the same time. Gwennie will start Kindergaten at a different school than Hunter and Tyler will start preschool! What is going on here? All the sudden my kids are all big. Don't get me wrong I am glad. I love them big, but they are going to be exposed to all the CRAP that you get in the real world once they are in school.

Anyway, back to my original point. I feel like a bad mom. I like summer for the first like 2 days and then I'm ready for routine. I need my house to have order rather than chaos. But alas....they will not begin until the 31st of this month. I have 4 weeks left with them (one of the weeks I will be in D.C.- so I will miss the madness). I hope they will have fun - that's my only wish that my craziness will not inhibit their memories of a good summer.

My head hurts so bad right now. I'm not sure if any of this made sense. Dallin has hand foot and mouth disease so he is the crankiest ever....that's just a side note, so that I have it documented so he can reminisce about it later in life. :)