You will have significant experiences. I hope that you will write them down and keep record of them, that you will read them from time to time and refresh your memory of those meaningful and significant things. Some may be funny. some may be significant only to you. some of them may be sacred and quietly beautiful. Some may build one upon another until they represent a lifetime of special experience. - President Hinckley



Friday, February 24, 2012

Not quite the same as Abraham and Isaac....

There have been 2 times in my life where I have been "nagged" by the spirit for days at a time- sometimes weeks. The first was when I had just had Gwendalin and she was only about 3 months old. I started having the feeling that someone was missing. I would get her and Hunter ready to go somewhere and look around for someone else because I was missing someone. Oh I didn't want to be missing someone...I had just had a very traumatic delivery with Gwennie, we both almost died, she was only 3 months old and Heavenly Father was telling me I was missing someone? I put it off for months....I couldn't believe he was prompting me with that.....I worked through what I was feeling and when she was 9 months old we started trying to get pregnant again...and when she was 1 we found out we were. Little Texas was on his way. I am so glad I have him- what a mellow little guy! Heavenly Father knew he had to send me a mellow one so that I could handle them being that close together...:) - and yes, I know there are many who have kids much closer than 21 months....

So recently in my life I have felt totally overwhelmed....too much going on, hard to give my kids the attention they need, hard to run them where they need to go, hard to find time for me, hard to clean my house, all of it! I have been overwhelmed to the MAX! So I've been praying for help. I have almost completely cut out Facebook (the occasional glance- yes), I have started doing more of me exercising at home, rather than at my classes- just to have my day less chopped up.

On fast Sunday this month I fasted about a possible business opportunity - which turned out to be what the Lord wants me to do right now. I wanted to know if pursuing doTERRA (the essential oils I'm using) would be a good fit for me. The day after my fast I had 3 people call me about oils, one of which signed up and several more during the last few weeks. I took that as my answer to continue and see who I could help with the oils. Along with this answer came another answer with regards to the "overwhelmed" feeling I've been having. For several days now the Lord has prompted me to get up earlier. huh? I love to sleep...I go to bed 10-11 and for those few hours at night while the kdis are in bed, it's my time with Travis (sanity time) - how could I get up earlier? I didn't like this prompting...but I was being nagged....consistently nagged....so yesterday I finally got up earlier (6:30) I had an hour before my kids got up - I scrubbed my kitchen floor, emptied the dishwasher, made muffins for breakfast and was far less impatient before they left for school.

I am going to try to continue to get up earlier a few days a week and then possibly daily once I get used to it. Now I know that this is not at all (either situation) the Lord asking me to do anything like he asked Abraham when he was asked to sacrifice his son. But the idea was the same....I felt like He was asking to see if I would do it because He asked. And I need the blessings that come with obedience so I decided to give it a try.

3 comments:

Kristin said...

Marie...you are absolutely amazing!!!

Melissa said...

I know the feeling. Stress life being so busy and not feeling like I had the level of patience I wanted. My hubby told me I needed to get out and exercise. Like I really had time to add one more thing to my already crazy life. So I finally did. It's not every day, and yes it throws my schedule off, but I am feeling so much better. So less stressed. I love your analogy.

Melissa Bosen said...

I love that you are so open to the inspiration. So many of us pray for answers and then forget to listen for them.