New Job Opportunity

Kevan Wheelock, our current Bishop, came over before we moved homes  on the Sunday that Travis and I spoke in sacrament meeting – which by the way- went very well, we had so many good compliments and feedback, our topic was on testimonies and keeping them strengthened every day – we got one comment that it was one of the best meetings we have had in years.  Anyway – Kevan came over and told Travis and I that we had done a good job and also that he had just learned about a job that I might be good for.  The pay is substantially higher than what I am making now and it sounded like it could be a good option- some kind of sales analyst.  Through the last month, I have had a phone interview with them and also a panel interview with them (last week).  I think I could do the job, but the thought of change is really hard for me.  I have struggled with it.  I think the underlying issue is that I don’t think I will be good at it…I don’t like to not be good at something….So, by the end of this week, we should hear one way or the other, but I’m leaning towards not taking it just because the stress of this whole process has almost killed me.  I had a panic attack in the parking lot last week just before I went in for my panel interview.  It ended up that I didn't get the job, which was actually a relief just because I wasn't faced with another decision to make....I don't do that well at all...