Inexplicable Feelings....ever had those?

So, since we have moved from our house next door they have been painting and redoing everything. Today they are recarpeting. I am so so happy that they are doing this because then when someone buys is it will be nice and clean for them. But, watching them make all of these changes - particularly the painting was so hard for me....isn't that so stupid? I watched out my windows every day as they painted and then yesterday when they finished I walked over and peeked in the windows and everything I had done was gone, painted over, erased, and all of "me" or what I had done to make it mine was gone. I had such a hard time with it all day after I looked in the windows. That is so so ridiculous to feel like that - I am glad they are doing it, relieved that someone won't have to see the stained carpets! I was fine most of the day and then a neighbor came over and asked what they had been doing to that house and I totally lost it. What? Seriously? Marie, GET. IT. TOGETHER! I was so embarassed, probably because it was a neighbor - who hasn't had to go through what I've gone through and even doing my best to explain why I was feeling like I was feeling - it was not making any logical sense because I was glad they had made the changes. I am happy where I am now so why am I so upset over it? I don't know if that makes any sense at all, but even now just writing it down I am emotional about it. I think just because it was mine and I had worked hard to make it such and now any remnant of me is gone - but I'm glad...it really is completely irrational thought...oh well....I guess unless you've been through it you'll never understand.