The last few years of our lives has been a bit stressful, much of it leading up to this point that we lost our house. I used to try to explain to everyone the circumstances surrounding it so they knew that it was not our fault in any way, but I have since decided that it doesn't matter what they think - it matters what the Lord thinks and I can say that we feel very close to Him and have felt that through the entire experience these last few years.
It's been challenging because we have had some people flat out say to us "we were raised better than that, our parents taught us to pay our bills..." really? did you actually just say that to me? You think my parents didn't teach us that as well....you think we didn't try everything in our power to keep this from actually becoming a reality? C'mon - think before you speak, you have no idea what has led us to this point and what circumstances we had to go through to get here.
Moving here and starting our own business was so excited and nerve wracking...but we were guided every step of the way. We picked our house - I had 2 babies in that house, we were there for over 5 years. We measured our kids at each birthday in the doorway of the laundry room...we were comfortable there. We loved it.
Change is inevitable. It comes always regardless of our circumstance, life will always offer change and how we deal with it shows what kind of people we are. This change, while stressful and at the time - unwelcomed, has become a great blessing to our family. We have learned, we have grown and we have seen the hand of the Lord in our lives every step of the way. So as I leave this house - while now it is just a shell that once housed my family, my possessions, my taste in paint colors, I find myself a little lost for words - emotional without realizing exactly why. I knew this was coming, I've known for a few years this was coming, but knowing that what was once mine is not anymore and although the Lord has blessed us immensly there is a part of me that feels like I have failed because this change came about in a very non conventional way.
I look forward so much to the symbol of a new start for us as we move to a new place. I welcome this change and hope to be positive and upbeat when change continues to knock at my door.
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wow... I remember when it looked like that the first time... all empty and open and waiting for you to come in and live... and now it wishes you a fond farewell- I understand your feelings, and there isn't a way to describe them... it's just kinda... vacant. I don't know- but I am excited for your new opportunities for growth, I know you will meet them head on, because your parents taught you that!
I am so glad that you are liking the new house. We loved it there and it was such a good place for our children. You were the best neighbors anyone could have asked for. We sure miss you guys.
You did some great things with the house and it looks beautiful.
You are right about moving. It is so hard and when you get so comfortable with the situation you find yourself in, its like the Lord allows change to come so that we can change ourselves and progress to different levels.
We have had a hard time moving also. But it has been good for our family in a way.
Pres. Monson has said that the only constant in life is change...and sometimes that change is hard. When looking back on the hard times in my life, then and only then can I see the growth and the learning that I went through and I wouldn't change a moment because I am who I am now because of what I've learned and experienced. I love the wisdom you have and share with us. You are awesome!!
Oh Marie, this was so very sweetly written. I cannot believe people actually said things to you. I hope you took that piece of wood with you (with all your kids height measurements on it). Change is usually for the best, and I wish you the very best in your new home.
Your old home is beautiful and it made me sad for you to see Gwendalin's name in an empty room. But on the flip side, your NEW home is just as pretty and perk that you didn't have to move far.
You have such a good attitude even though your family has gone through a lot. Keep your head up girl.... you are a great mama. Travis is lucky to have you!
Here is to a better year!
Dood, I am getting emotional looking at that empty house. A lot of memories in that house.
It sucks having to leave your house and I felt the same way when I left mine. Can't we go back to being 16 again and have no worries?!
Marie, you are amazing! I am so sorry that life has dealt you with so much these last few years. You inspire me though with your optimistic attitude. Good luck with the new house and a new beginning! Love and miss you guys!!!
I'm sorry you had to leave the house. All those memories and good times. It is hard to hear people judge you when you've done your best. The Lord is blessing you. We're excited for you to make some new memories.
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