Have you ever been out and about and run into someone you know and you think you look pretty good (maybe because you went shopping that day- hypothetically of course), and the first thing out of their mouth is "You look so tired, I've never seen you look so tired." How do you respond to that? "well, thank you...you look tired yourself." - not the best response.
This very thing happened to me this week. I had been shopping earlier in the day and was at a school function with Hunter that evening. I had worked out, trimmed a few grassy bushes in my yard, made dinner, and went to the school. Oh and I had shed a few tears during the day as well...nothing alarming just the regular tear shedding that I do. But I had taken a shower and did my makeup and hair and put on some of my new clothes so I thought I looked okay, but maybe not. So, yes, maybe I was a wee bit tired, but do you really say that to someone?
Anyway, I didn't take offense to that, it just proved to me that you can't really hide how you feel sometimes. And today I had all four kids at church by myself - which was okay...Dallin slept through Sacrament meeting (what a blessing) and I wrestled the other three. What a blessing it is to have an abundant supply of fruit snacks. :) Anyway, I teach Sunbeams...and I have a "helper" that has been called to be there, but she was sick...so wouldn't you know it, I nurse Dallin during Sunday school (1st hour of primary - sharing/singing time) and then trudge on to class. Today instead of my usually 6 sunbeams I had 8! And I walked into class and Dallin began to just scream. I knew it would be fun....I held him the rest of the hour and he finally crashed. For those of you who have taught sunbeams before you know that they all want to sit on your lap show you what they brought to church, have you fix something that broke, tie their shoe, etc. and getting drinks is a task because none of them can reach the drinking fountain....and poor little class I couldn't help because I was holding my 7 week old baby trying to have a normal non-baby screaming class. It was an adventure.
In light of all of this information I have decided that today I hate Elk season becuase church is so hard without the help of my other half. However, I have come to the realization that because I have a testimony I go even when he's gone and I want my kids to go. I was tempted to just stay home - a few of the kids had runny noses...but I didn't want to give in to that. It has made me realize that I am grateful for an active husband who goes to church every Sunday (except when he's out of town) because it would be such a challenge to do it by myself every week- even though I would for the sake of my children.
So, in conclusion if you see me around you can say "You look tired, I've never seen you look so tired." I won't care because single parenting will do that to you. And it's a sacrifice I am willing to make even if it makes me look so tired.
HAPPY SUNDAY TO ALL! Naptime here we come....